sometimes i go all the way preparing myself not to expect a particular something...yet when the moment arrives, it hurts real bad...like someone has punched me hard in the stomach!!
and i wonder what is the use of preparing the self soo much??
perhaps its better off living a fantasy hoping itll come true someday and then see it getting crushed to bits when the time comes than being broken into pieces every single day just preparing for it only to find out that in the end, u can never really be completely prepared...
no matter how much u try to forget a dream, it still hurts when it is broken!