I was checking my orkut when suddenly i remembered that i hadent wished a friend for the new year...that brought about yet another realisation that i hadent heard from her over the last few days...
so feeling a tad bit dissapointed i typed in her name only to find out that she was no longer there in my friend list...i was taken aback (no!..shocked is more apt a word) but then i consoled myself thinking that she had probably exchanged her name for a status msg on her profile...so i went ahead and tried searching her page in a common friends list and there she was--among the first few people showing online!!
what i found out later through the common friend was that she has been going through a tough time and so has decided to cut off on all 'online' friendships!!
thats when enlightenment dawned that maybe she is one of those or has changed into one of those people who no matter what, decide never to rub off the line between 'online' and 'friendship'
there have been times in the past when i was wary of online friendships myself...but then i met u guys and realised that i was wrong..so totally wrong!!
well yes, i still am cautious of random strangers on the net and there is no denying that but if and when i befriend them, i make sure i dont walk out on them...and definitely not for a reason they are least responsible for!!
not asking for much but atleast a small note saying that ur rubbing me off is all i expect...!
i wont ask questions...
i wont expect any explanations...
just tell me that ur walking away and i promise i wont stop you!
but leaving silently like this??? its just not done!!
where did the friendship go?
where did the sweet talk and plesantries dissapear? or was it exactly that---"sweet talk and ridiculous plesantries"
i know she blogged about it and im guilty of not being able to update myself..but having known that, is leaving a small tiny message/email/scrap too difficult?
i know that we all need our 'me-time' once in a while..but dont expect me not to be shocked and hurt if u suddenly dissapear like that!!
no i wont understand...
no i wont sympathise...
ive been there...done that...have had my share of insecurities, vulnerabilities and all i can say is that with time, u realise that losing out on people who really care about u is just not worth it...
remember 'someone who deserves ur tears will never make u cry and if he does then it just means he isnt worth ur tears'..so gear up...get up and face the world...dont run away from friends..from life!!
im also aware that realisation dawns with its own sweet time..
so i wont offer long hours of advice and i wont force my opinion...like i said on her blog, we are there with her...maybe from the other side of the comp screen but we always will be! (unless ofcourse she decides to rub us off from her life for good)
For now, all i can do is wish her all the best and hope 2009 gets her back with us as a much stronger and happier person!