when everything seems to be going all wrong and yet you cannot place a finger on it.
when you are suddenly all irritated and angry with almost each and every decision you have made so far.
when you are confused about whats happening and even more perplexed because you know for a fact, that you have been the one to have chosen it.
when u feel that nobody around cares--that people who seem to, are probably just faking it..or worse perhaps uve just been imagining what u wanted to believe.
when you want to pick up the phone and call just one goddamn person on earth who is genuinely concerned about you only to realise you cannot come up with a single name without having to think twice about it.
when a stupid measly line in an emailed forward saying--"dont let anyone be a priority in your life when you are just an option in theirs"--stings you like hell.
when you find tears streaming down your face all of a sudden and you have absolutely no frigging idea why.
when you realise that life had probably come to a stand still ages ago and you were yet trying to push hoping it would move.
when something is bothering you yet u can neither speak about it nor live to let it lie.
when you finally get about understanding that some people you considered wellwishers were always serpents in disguise--just that you perhaps refused to acknowledge it earlier.
when you have no idea where your life is heading and drifting along without any direction was somethng you had promised yourself never to let happen.
when u get a strange feeling which tells you that the inevitable 'beginning of the end' is just around the corner.
when you know you cant change certain things in your life and yet are also aware that you are unable to accept them.
and last but not the least, when u are sure that blogging about this will get you a whole lotta 'ive-been-through-the-same-shit' comments and yet you cant help smile because u know nobody would ever really understand what exactly you are trying to say.
because, in life...
there are some people, we fail to understand.
some, we dont have the time and patience to.
and then there are a third kind---whom we refuse to try understand..because we are afraid...afraid of what would happen if we actually succeeded.
neverthless, live and let live!